i had almost finished typing my post when the window suddenly shut down itself. sheet. so i'm re-typing everything again.

6 Oct
Attended Sd Nationwide Meeting. Kystal & i got interviewed by Liang Yue for WINGS (: After that Min Ling, Valerie, Pei Pei, Shi Han(only YMD) and i gathered at the basement to discuss about SIM-Campus Dialogue for a short while, before the ITAC peeps and Wei Fong from SMU went to TM Long John Silvers' for dinner. After dinner the girls wanna sit down and chit-chat so we all went to Starbucks. They ordered Blueberry Green Tea Frappucino which i thought was abit distasteful. Haha.



7 Oct



Went for Members' Kenshu at SCC in the morning. When i reached there and found out that i was registered for the Mandarin course instead of English, i thought i will not survive. Cos Buddhist terms & teachings in Chinese seemed so profound & overpowering which i think i would not be able to grasp or understand fully. (i wonder how i passed my higher chinese during O'levels)

But after attending the full session, i was grateful that i was in the Mandarin course. The Kenshu turned out to be superb! I was completely inspired & enriched. Although youths are the super minority, i saw quite a no. of familiar faces like Sikang's mum, Jianli's mum (who told me she saw me coming in late -.-) and members from my district. Listening in Mandarin & translating on my notebook in English has also allowed me to really seek to decipher and digest the info presented, rather than just pure copying and nothing gets into the head at the end of the day. As usual, my "tap" will start to turn on when i see Sensei in the videos.

"把宿命转换成为使命"
"苦来苦挡；乐来乐受"
"湿木也能起火"
The most fruitful session of all is the sharing of testimonials by the WDs. All we need is just one solid testimonial to make everyone rummaging for tissues. We had three in a row, you can imagine how overwhelming the atmosphere was (: Here is something that really struck me hard as this is what i believe alot ppl are facing now:

When we pray for something, and when we do not see the actual proof or benefit, it is because the time is not right. For example, a child suffering from cough wants to eat ice-cream, there is a reason why the parents do not want to give; it is because the time is not suitable. Similarly, ghzn is just like our parent. Not giving us things that we prayed for is definitely because the time is not right or it may have other better arrangements for us. Therefore, we must never doubt the ghzn; when the time is right, we will definitely get what we prayed for or the best alternative arrangement!

8 Oct



Gave tuition to my cousin at Yishun. As usual i stayed for dinner. Although the dishes were very common, i found them especially tasty. How sweet & nice it is, to be able to sit together and enjoy dinner as a family. It has been a long time since my family sat down for a meal together le :(

9 Oct
Went to SYC after my lecture to coach Jerry in Biology. Haiz. Really worried about this noob leh, till now he is still unsure of the basic terms & concepts. I really hope his efforts will pay off nonetheless. 只要不放弃, 湿木必定能起火的! After that he was gentleman enough to send me home cos i was feeling abit drowsy from the medication. Haha. Thanks Jerry.

10 Oct
We were supposed to have Econs test, but the questions set were really tough. So the lecturer allowed us to bring it home to complete as homework. Hehe.

These few days had trouble sleeping, dunno whether is it due to the medicine. Normally when my head hits the pillow i will fall asleep within 10 mins. But yesterday i could not get to sleep at all. I kept tossing and turning on my bed hoping to find a comfortable position but i can feel that my mind is not relaxed at all. it felt so intense and preoccupied; my brain is like having a heavy "traffic jam".

11 Oct



That is why i cannot concentrate on Maths lecture this morning. I had a sudden crave to binge and i even jot down a list of food i feel like eating. Like Blk 185's 鱼片米粉, picnic ham, crabmeat sushi, Campbell's Sichuan Hot & Spicy soup and Old Chang Kee's fried chicken wings.
(those in bold are what i really ate today haha)

I can eat really eat alot when im under pressure. Yum yum.

*posted on Thursday, 11 Oct 2007, 11.16pm*